Song of the Day #191

This is my favorite KiD CuDi song. Hit me last night and I listened to it about 10 times.

KiD CuDi- "Soundtrack 2 My Life" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

"Ive got some issues that nobody can see

And all of these emotions are pouring out of me

I bring them to the light for you

It's only right

This is the soundtrack to my life, the soundtrack to my life"

"I'm super paranoid, like a 6th sense

Since my father died, I ain't been right since

And I tried to piece the puzzle of the universe

Split an eighth of shrooms just so I could see the universe

I tried to think about myself as a sacrifice

Just to show the kids they ain't the only ones who up at night

The moon will illuminate my room and soon I'm consumed by my doom

Once upon a time nobody gave a fuck

It's all said and done and my cock's been sucked

So now I'm in the cut, alcohol in the wound

My hearts an open sore that I hope heals soon

I live in a cocoon opposite of Cancun

Where it is never sunny, the dark side of the moon

So it's more than life, I try to shed some light on a man

Not many people of this planet understand"

"It's close to go and trying some coke

And a happy ending is slitting my throat

Ignorance the coke man

Ignorance is bliss

Ignorance is love, and I need that shit

..

I just need a thoroughbred, cook when I'm hungry

Ass all chunky, brain is insanity

Only things that calm me down, pussy and some Cali trees

And I get both, never truly satisfied

I am happy, that's just the saddest lie"

Song(s) of the Day #186

Can you say Chi-City?

Jay-Z & Kanye West- "Niggas In Paris" from Watch the Throne

KiD CuDi feat. MGMT and Ratatat- "Pursuit of Happiness" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

Hollywood Undead- "Bottle and a Gun" from Swan Songs

Song of the Day #141

I love this song. It always gives me the illusion of hope when I know that everything is still gonna end up bad for me. I want to help other people out but I think (more KNOW) I'm an asshole so it stops me. Also dat guitar solo.

Kid Cudi feat. MGMT & Ratatat- "Pursuit of Happiness" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

"[VERSE 1:]

Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit

Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.

I don't care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I'm doin’ my thing

Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams

People told me slow my roll I'm screaming out "Fuck that"

Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back

if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest

if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets

[CHORUS]

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good.

[x2]

[VERSE 2:]

Tell me what you know about dreamin’ dreamin’

you don't really know about nothin’ nothin’

tell me what you know about them night terrors every night

5 am, cold sweats wakin’ up to the skies

tell me what you know about dreams, dreams

tell me what you know about night terrors, nothin’

you don't really care about the trials of tomorrow

rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow

[CHORUS:]

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good

[x2]

[Guitar Solo]

[CHORUS:]

I'm on the pursuit of happiness.

I know everything that shines ain't always gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good

I'm on the pursuit of happiness

And I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold, hey

I'll be fine once I get it, yeah

I'll be good

Pursuit of happiness, yeah

I don’t get it, I’ll be good"

Night-Time

This late night time used to be mine. The quietness. The friends to hang with. The worry free stuff. I used to love being up late, whether it was alone or with friends. But what happened? Now I resent it. I hate being up past 1 or 2 cause I know it'll just get me to thinking. About bad stuff. My self esteem issues, my lack of friends (the non-existent amount of girlfriends), the fact I'll never be good enough, hell even at times about ending it all. I try to mask these thoughts with shows on Netflix, movies, video games and streams. Sometimes it works I guess other times it just turns into background noise. Is it really that hard to be happy. I used to think I was a pretty happy guy. Life swung my way for the most part. I still love the night though. Especially if I happen to get out on a drive or shoot hoops or something. It's so silent. Peaceful. In Texas throw in that it's cooler as well. The darkness conceals. The scum the badness, the uncouth of the world. The darkness consumes. It consumes the intentions of the good people and turns them into a black hole. I love both aspects of the dark and night. The goodness it brings as well as the evil it releases. Now you're probably wondering why I'm writing this dark/light blog post. And to be quite honest, I don't even know. It just hit me that these hours used to me my time. My time to exercise my emotions in a useful way. My time to "be me" if you will. Now it's the time where I beat myself up and wish that everything was different and I don't think or want the things I can't have. Now for me it's alone. It's the time where I get to practice what I always will be I guess. Is this an "emo post"? Yes. Could this be a sad post? Of course it is. But it's all good. I'm starting to accept that I'll probably end up being alone. In the daytime and at night.

KiD CuDi- "Solo Dolo (Nightmare)" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

"(Yawn)

Listen Good

I don't have nobody

But what I might feel all the sounds of sanity

Hoping what I hear, loops itself continuously

Then I won't be afraid

No No

[Chorus:]

Oh woah woah woah

Why must it feel so wrong when I try and do right, do right

Oh woah woah woah

Soaring through paradise when I'm closing my eyes

I'm, Mr. Solo Dolo

Oh Oh Oh

Oh Oh

Look at me

You tell me

Just what you see

Am I, someone whom, you may love, or enemy

Am I speaken for, you and yours, or someone else

I need some answers

Yeah Yeah

[Chorus:]

Oh woah woah woah

Why must it feel so wrong when I try and do right, do right

Oh woah woah woah

Soaring through paradise when I'm closing my eyes

I'm, Mr. Solo Dolo

Oh Oh Oh

Oh Oh

My world turns

Flippin the bird

To the ones who figure, me

Outkast no not the duo

Back at Shaker Heights

When they knew

Though little brother was a strange one

Boo hoo

Cry me a river

Hater look who

Traveled out an igloo

Cold cold world wasn't fit for me at, oh

Look at where I stand at

Tall, Clutchin my kid cudi bizalls

Mute mutha fuckas back home

Quick pause

Gargle on my mayo

Look at me I bet I'm the one you think the fail

Floatin in my mind

No Sail

Ahoy

Ahoy

Listen Good

I don't need nobody

This is what you feel all the sounds of insanity

Hopin what I hear loops itself to finish me

No I won't be afraid

Hey Hey

[Chorus:]

Oh woh woah woah

Why must it feel so wrong when I try and do right, do right

Oh woah woah woah

Soaring through paradise when I'm closing my eyes

I'm, Mr. Solo Dolo

Why must it feel so right when I know that it's wrong, it's wrong

When will I ever learn from the words from my songs

I'm, Mr. Solo Dolo."

Song of the Day #97

Still remember the first time I listened to this astounding track. The lovely piano, the smooth voice of Cudi, the amazing chorus and MGMT/Ratatat accompanying? Perfect.

Kid Cudi feat. MGMT & Ratatat- "Pursuit of Happiness" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

"[VERSE 1:]

Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit

Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.

I don't care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I'm doin’ my thing

Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams

People told me slow my roll I'm screaming out "Fuck that"

Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back

if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest

if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets

[CHORUS]

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good.

[x2]

[VERSE 2:]

Tell me what you know about dreamin’ dreamin’

you don't really know about nothin’ nothin’

tell me what you know about them night terrors every night

5 am, cold sweats wakin’ up to the skies

tell me what you know about dreams, dreams

tell me what you know about night terrors, nothin’

you don't really care about the trials of tomorrow

rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow

[CHORUS:]

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good

[x2]

[Guitar Solo]

[CHORUS:]

I'm on the pursuit of happiness.

I know everything that shines ain't always gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good

I'm on the pursuit of happiness

And I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold, hey

I'll be fine once I get it, yeah

I'll be good

Pursuit of happiness, yeah

I don’t get it, I’ll be good"

Song of the Day #4

Well this is Halloween, but this song has been on my mind since last night. It may not be strictly Halloween, but as with most songs, lyrics just resound with me. Not to mention the beat and accompanying music is chill, slow, and eerie. See tied in the creepy-esque beat with Halloween. This is another Kid Cudi song off Man on the Moon: The End of Day, called "Solo Dolo (Nightmare)" I love lines in this song so much, especially the chorus. "Why must it feel so wrong, when I try and do right, do right .. soaring through paradise when I'm closing my eyes, I'm Mr Solo Dolo." I try to be nice and talk and encourage people, and all that jazz, sometimes (actually most of the time), it falls of deaf ears. I hate it cause I'm just trying to help and it feels like doing the kind things is actually wrong. The only time I'm fully at peace with my running, thinking mind is when my eyes are closed, when I'm asleep. It's partly why I do it so much. To just sleep for two hours in the late afternoon, just to get my mind off everything for a bit. But even a bit further, with all my family, friends, Justin/TwitchTV family and friends around I still feel completely alone. Just another Cudi song that I think personifies me. My costume today? Don't really need to wear one. Just getting dressed, my normal clothes. If anyone asks, today I'm Mr. Solo Dolo.

"(Yawn)

Listen good

I don't have nobody

But what I might feel all the sounds of sanity

Hoping what I hear, loops itself continuously

Then I won't be afraid

No No"

Kid Cudi- "Solo Dolo (Nightmare)" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

Song of the Day #3

Kid Cudi- "Soundtrack 2 My Life" from Man on the Moon: The End of Day

To me this is the perfect song. It combines a sick, upbeat, beat with the problems only really a few of us know how to "deal" with or have been through. This song is just Kid pouring out his soul and sadness into the verses, in what I consider my favorite song by him. Even when this first came out it always resounded with me. Now every time I listen to it the line "Since my father died, I ain't been right since"...I just identify with it. The feeling I've been feeling over the summer and such also reside in me from these lines as well. "I was close to tryin some coke, and a happy ending would be slittin' my throat" and "I'm happy, that's just the saddest lie." Also the chorus is just so perfect. So many lyrics and moment that Cudi has been through and decided to share in this song. It's just one of those songs in your life that's THE song. For me the sadness, the lyrics, the beat, and just Kid Cudi's even timing on throughout the whole song is amazing. This song personifies me, thanks out to Kid Cudi for recording this.

I've got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring outta me
I bring them to the light for you
It's only right
This is the soundtrack to my life
The soundtrack to my life ohhhh