Song(s) of the Day #205

I just want someone or to feel not alone. Is that too much to ask for? I guess so. I love Gambino.

Childish Gambino- "So Fly" from Culdesac

"You are the bestest, I will obey you

They wanna know what, I couldn't say who

You are the only one who's ever really seen me

I know that I'm the reason that you don't watch any tv

I wanna lay on your stomach so bad

And it gets a little quiet in this bachelor pad

And I don't really understand the thing we had

I wanna try again, but it would just be sad

And oh, oh whoa

You are the only one who's ever let me be me

We can make it easy

We can do it simple

I'll be waiting right there

Promise to be gentle

Sittin' by your window

Girl, you're so fly to me

So fly. Girl you're so fly

So fly. Girl you're so fly

So fly. Girl you're so fly to me

So fly. Girl you're so fly

So fly. Girl you're so fly

So fly. Girl you're so fly to me"

Childish Gambino- "Be Alone" from EP

"I don't wanna be alone

I don't wanna be alone

I don't wanna be alone

Oh, oh, oh

'Cause ya know, somewhere inside

I cannot find

The feeling I got from you

No, somewhere inside

I cannot find

The feeling I got from you

Hard for a pitchfork, soft for a Rockefeller

Music was my side chick, but now we're moving in together

Always felt misunderstood, I guess I have to tolerate

My swag Jehovah Witness, dude, it never take a holiday

APC jeans, brown leather jacket on

Kitsuné cable knit, cardigan from Rag & Bone

Thick Filipino chick, homemade bracelet

Her booty make her just a rapper, she ain't gotta say shit

I'm someone they admire

Set the game ablaze, I'm an arcade fire

Laughed at my rides like my motion was funny

Yes, ashy to classy, my lotion is money

The ride is easy when the dollar's there to grease the wheels

Now everybody tell me what to do and how to feel

It seems the more I try to connect with the world

I am feeling more alone than I ever have felt before

I wanna pick up the phone, ask my dad how to handle it

But what will happen when my dad's not there to answer it?

I try to clear my mind of thoughts that only slow me down

Like when these niggas call me "faggot" and "we homies now"

But we are not homies, I just keep you around

'Cause all your talkin' is the noise I need to kill this sound

Have all these voices tellin' me no one can help me out

We are alone I'm just the only one to figure out"

Song of the Day #126

This beat is goddamn infectious. I love it. PLUS I've always been a fan of the verse he throws in here. Love me some Donald Glover.

Childish Gambino- "I Got This Money" from Culdesac

"I got an upstairs, downstairs in my loft

Check the mixtape, baby. I don't talk

Yes, I run this shit, like it's hard to walk

And you think that I'm dope, like a mound of chalk

I'm recession proof. I work to relax, ho

Weird voice catch beef like a lasso

New fresh prince, you can chill in my castle

Spit real shit, so I must be an asshole, right?

Nah, that's why I'm makin' out in your car

These blogs are a dude's A&R

Got a big tip for these girls at the bar

But I don't mean money

Ever since the money, they just treat me funny

Girls look good, she can take green from me

Ain't trickin' if you got it, know what I mean, buddy?

You've got your yellow sun dress on

I'm tryna write you the best song

With your Wayfarer shades, you drive me insane

I wanna hold hands, and call you pet names"

I'm Sick Of....

Feeling bad and caring for people. It's that simple. Full on rant incoming. Lately I've been trying to get off of the "let's not give a shit" bandwagon and it's gotten me nowhere. Its gotten me anxietal feelings I haven't had in months over the past week. And holy God I've done nothing wrong. I cast (I beat BioShock 2 yesterday and it was AMAZING), I watch TV, I watch casts, I watch some movies, talk to friends on Skype and I play video games online with friends. Hell, Binding of Isaac and Mario Kart 7 are riots playing with friends. I love it. And that's literally all I do. I'm lazy, fat, ugly, I have no job, and I'm not going back to school till the fall. I have no girlfriend or any interest in any girls right now. My life is awful. YET SOMEHOW, when I try to be nice, hang out with people who are lonely/alone/bored, do the right thing, whatever, it's either shrugged off or I'm ignored. Well Jesus Christ I'm sick of it. TO TOP IT ALL OFF, my family that hardly ever comes around cause my uncle's wife practically hated us for years, comes by this week and tell me I'm depressed and I'm never going to amount to anything here in the US so I should move to China with them and work in a factory to "better myself." DHGfedgwedBVDShgb. I'm losing it. I'm a failure, all I do is disappoint people, all I do is ruin peoples lives and relationships, all the right things I do are wrong. AND FOR WHAT. Apart from posts like this, some emo Tweets/updates or watching wrestling and Twit spamming, I keep to myself. I hate it all, I'm sick of being nice, caring and understanding and being hated for it, scorned for it or ignored altogether. I'm done with it. Quit making me feel bad or just get out of my life. Cause God knows I don't have to balls to do anything about it.

Childish Gambino- "Fuck It All" from Culdesac

"[Hook:]

I ain't gonna be around for ever, so fuck it all

Seein' all this pussy, I'm a fuck it all

Fly around the world, eatin' good, drinkin' alcohol

You ain't nothing like me, nigga, not at all

I ain't gonna be around for ever, so fuck it all

Seein' all this pussy, I'm a fuck it all

Fly around the world, eatin' good, drinkin' alcohol

You ain't nothing like me, nigga, not at all

[Verse 1:]

Tell em what it is, I'm takin' great strides

Hood niggas, hipsters, I ain't trying to take sides

Ex-Girlfriend on my mind, she really fucked me up

Doing shots of whiskey 'till my friends are saying that's enough

I really really miss her, sometimes I wanna fuck it all

Mix some warm Guinness with 20 tablets of Tylenol

Call em while I'm drifting off, tell her that I love her so

Parents crying harder cause I didn't even leave a note

Saying that I'm selfish and I'm sorry that I left

But it hurts so much to wake up and I left you guys a check

Cause I ain't fucking happy, you don't know shit about me

I think it started when she said she happier without me

I really can't blame her cause I'm happier without me

I don't see what girls are seeing when they say their all about me

I'm scared they wanna trap me, these all hoes are all liars

I double bag my shit and never cum while I'm inside her

I used to be a sweet dude, now I'm so angry

Look at what these girls and these fake niggas made me

Cry when I'm writing, I don't really know why

I think it's cause I can't really see myself an old guy

And that scares me, I wanna be around a while

But I feel my purpose goes beyond having raised a child

Bright lights, they tend to burn out fast

So I shine bright, But I'm scared that it won't last

[Hook]

[Verse 2:]

I'm just about the pop, the industry just noticed it

People watching me, I feel like Amber Rose's tits

Friends of mine are over it, people say I changed

And I tell them that I'm glad, cause I don't wanna stay the same

Cause I used to be poor, I used to be unconfident

I used to hate these haters, now it's just the opposite

Not only have I changed, I'm becoming something better

And revenge is for the weak, so I have settled my vendettas

With all of the kids who made my early life a living hell

And I hope you're doing well and feeling better 'bout yourself

Don't know if you can tell, but change is usually for the better

I used to like these bitches but couldn't afford to get em

But now I'll take your girl, yeah player pay homage

That's why I fuck these bad mamas, Kate Gosselin

I'm trying to tell the world I'm nothing to be trifled with

Donald Glover staying hotter than some rifle spit

They only wanna fuck with you after you made your way

But when you started out you couldn't pay em to stay

But now I got em lined up in the lobby door

It makes me wonder what this rapping shits a hobby for

Oh that's right, because I'm gifted in another field, and another field, and another field

They say my public persona don't have enough appeal

I take a lesson from Kanye and give em something real

I'm getting all this attention I wanna do it right

That's why I'm performing for you like every single night

To all my fans who's saying Donald Glover about to blow

Just give me six months so you can say I told you so

[Hook]"