Song of the Day #85

WZRD (KiD CuDi and Dot da Genius)- "Love Hard" from WZRD

(Intro)

Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah

Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah

Yeah

(Verse 1)

What you gon' say to me?? Hmm??

You want to tell me something??

Let it please be true

Now what you want from me??

Never mind don't say a thing to me

I want to see what's in your eyes

See they never lie

Hmm, well I'll be satisfied. Will you complete my life??

The blueprint of peace, the solution to love. I found you now will you be true??

(Hook)

Oh, if you love soft, then you already lost

But oh, if you love hard

You should let down your guard and follow your heart

Follow your heart

Follow your heart

Follow your heart

(Verse 2)

Now w-what you say to me??

Girl if you get mad at me and we lost our groove

Would you build me up, oh just to break me down

I need me some stability

I need consistency

The way you promise me I promise I'll upgrade your life

It's the blueprint of peace and the solution to love

I can protect you if you protect me too

(Hook)

Oh, if you love soft, then you already lost

But oh, if you love hard

You should let down your guard and follow your heart

Follow your heart

Follow your heart

Follow your heart

Yeah. Do you love me?? No wait, tell me do you love me?? Yeah

Love hard

Love hard

Oh if you love hard

Oh if you love hard

(Hook)

Oh, if you love soft, then you already lost

But oh, if you love hard

You should let down your guard and follow your heart

Follow your heart

Follow your heart

Follow your heart

Song of the Day #84

Kanye West- "Addiction" from Late Registration

"[Chorus]

[Kanye (Female Voice)]

Why everything that's supposed to bad make me feel so good?

Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would

Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could

But (You make me smile)

What's your addiction? Is it money? Is it girls? Is it weed?

I've been afflicted by not one, not two, but all three

She's got the same thing, about me, but more, about us

She's coming over, so I guess, that means, I'm on drugs

Just let me peek now, I mean damn, I'm so curious

She's got a lover, so the lies, and the lust, is a rush

Time's of the essence, I need, you to be, spontaneous

Roll up the doge, henny and c-c-c-cola, then I'm co coming over

Cuz its ne-never over

[Chorus]

[Kanye (Female Voice)]

Why everything that's supposed to bad make me feel so good

Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would

Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could

But (You make me smile)

I see the emotion in your eyes, that you, try not to show

We get the closest when you high, or you drunk, or you blow

So I pour the potion, so we could both get high, as we could go

Then I'll get the lotion, and do something to me, when your thighs is exposed

There's no turning back now, I mean I don't mean to impose

Not now but right now, I need you to undress, and then pose

I'm into that now, catch a vibe, when the doors, get closed

Roll up the doge, henny and c-c-c-cola, and I keep co coming over

Cuz its ne-never over

[Chorus]

[Female Voice (Female Voice)]

Why everything that's supposed to bad make me feel so good

Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would

Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could

But... (You Make Me Smile)

(You make me smile with my heart)

[INSTRUMENTAL]

[Chorus]

[Kanye (Female Voice)]

Why everything that's supposed to bad make me feel so good

Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would

Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could

But... (You make me smile, With my heart)

I just wanted to ask you

Just wanted to um

Let how would I put this uhh

Let's say all your friends

Remember the one

You said if you ever she would be the one

Ok, Ok, Ok (You make me smile with my heart)

I was thinking, hypothetically

I mean don't take this seriously

Don't take me: I mean just

Uhh not credibly

I'm feeling incredibly

I mean let it be

Just let it be

I mean you, her and me (You make me smile with my heart)

I mean you, her and me

Maybe, Baby, Baby

You know I was just kidding

Unless you gon' do it

(You make me smile...)"

Song of the Day #83

Fun. feat. Janelle Monae- "We Are Young (Acoustic)" from Some Nights

"Give me a second I,

I need to get my story straight

My friends are in the bathroom getting higher than the Empire State

My lover she’s waiting for me just across the bar

My seat’s been taken by some sunglasses asking bout a scar, and

I know I gave it to you months ago

I know you’re trying to forget

But between the drinks and subtle things

The holes in my apologies, you know

I’m trying hard to take it back

So if by the time the bar closes

And you feel like falling down

I’ll carry you home

Tonight

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

Now I know that I’m not

All that you got

I guess that I, I just thought

Maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

But our friends are back

So let’s raise a cup

‘Cause I found someone to carry me home

Tonight

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

Carry me home tonight (Nananananana)

Just carry me home tonight (Nananananana)

Carry me home tonight (Nananananana)

Just carry me home tonight (Nananananana)

The moon is on my side

I have no reason to run

So will someone come and carry me home tonight

The angels never arrived

But I can hear the choir

So will someone come and carry me home

Tonight

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

Tonight

We are young

So let’s set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

So if by the time the bar closes

And you feel like falling down

I’ll carry you home tonight"

Song of the Day #82

"Lately I really, feel like I'm rolling for Delph like Philly

I feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely

I apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complaining

But life keeps on complicating, and

I'm debating on leaving this world this evening

Even my girls can see I'm grieving, I try and hide it

But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty

When inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help

I can't do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I've been having ups and downs

Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying

Around with the idea, of ending the shit right here

I'm hatin my reflection, I walk around the house trying to fight mirrors

I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?

I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie

I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her

Shit"

Eminem- "Going Through Changes" from Recovery

Going Through Changes

"If I could make up for by apologizing, I'd apologize as much as it took..But that's not how things are. Even if I tried to make up for it, I'd never be able to..So I'm going to start with what I can do. I don't know what it is yet, but I'm serious. I want to change..I won't ask you to trust me right away..I may not do a good job right away. I may make mistakes. But I'm going to change.."

~Luke, Tales of the Abyss~

I don't know what more to add to this. I love this so much and wish I could be as strong as a fictional character in a video game. I hate that I want this so bad, but I'll probably just keep messing up and hurting the people I truly love. 

Is There Anyone Out There? (Cliche I Know...)

As I sit here watching Parks and Recreation waiting for The Office, the last four days have been hell for me. Between thoughts about my dad, thoughts about not being able to be with a person, and failing at life in general, it's spurred terrible thoughts in my head. I miss my dad, I can't be with one the person I want to be with (probably will never reach them, yeah I'm still on this) and I feel like I'm failing them. And even though it's not true, that no one wants anything to do with me. I've been crying, depressed and ultimately more than a bit suicidal (admittedly for the first time). I've talked with people and opened up more than ever apologized yet again for the stupid stuff I do. Last night I went out for a late drive and went around to all the houses and apartments I've been living in since coming to Texas. Fully intent to do something stupid once I got done. It ends up that I got call and a text at the same time, I don't know why but it stopped me. The downward spiral continues in my mind, no matter how much comedy I watch or video games I play, and I don't know where it's going to lead me. But even with everyone talking to me and telling me they're going be there, the fact that they can't be here is what scares me. That even though they want to be no one can save me if they're not here. I'm sorry if I'm worrying anyone,but I think I needed this.

Song of the Day #81

"This beat deserves Hennessey, a bad bitch

And a bag of weed; the Holy Trinity

In the mirror where I see my only enemy

Your life’s cursed, well mine’s an obscenity"

This beat is divine was well.

Kanye West & Jay-Z feat Curtis Mayfield- "The Joy" from Watch the Throne